Big Brother Little Brother

Well the transition from one kid to two kids has not been that difficult. I have been a little hormonal which is different than her I was with Jude. I'm not depressed or anything like that I just feel like I am crazy sometimes. Little bit more emotional and I am a lot more sensitive than I am normally. Jude has been struggling a little bit especially at bedtime. He is getting a little bit better but I think the excitement of having a lot of family here and having a new little brother was difficult for him. He has also been acting out a little bit more and I am not sure if that has to do with his age or has to do with Titus. I think it has to do with both. The last couple of days he's been really sweet and has started to want to hold him. He doesn't want him to sleep in his room yet. But I know he will soon. Today at naptime Titus was already falling asleep in the crib when Jude was going to sleep. I walked out of the room and Jude was completely still and going to sleep. Unfortunately, Titus was not totally asleep and started to cry when I went in there to give Titus back his pacifier Jude wanted me to take Titus out as soon as I did he went to sleep.  This transition I know only lasts a little while and I am excited to see them get to play together.I think it's fun having due to sit in my lap and then letting tightest slip and Jude's lap. I love my two boys so very much.

Titus is HERE

Titus was born on February 20 at 12:13 in the afternoon. At about 6:30 in the morning I went to use the restroom and went back to bed. A few seconds later I felt like I had to go again so I went back and that time when a lot. I asked Ryan what your water breaks is supposed to be like and he laughed saying oh yes because I know. I didn't think too much about it and went back to sleep for about an hour often on getting out of bed to go P. At 8 o'clock I texted Ryan, who is already at work, and he told me to call The doctor and tell them what was going on. The nurse told me to go ahead and go in and they would check to see if it was my water that had broke. I did not have a bag ready so I asked if I could shower and get dressed first and they said yes. I went ahead and got stuff for the hospital just in case my water had broken. Thank goodness Clark was here because I was able to tell him that I was leaving and my exact words were "I may or may not be in labor." I told him I would tell him if I was coming back or send someone here to help with Jude it up I needed to. He thought I was funny saying that I may or may not be in labor but I truly did not know. On the way to the hospital I started feeling more contractions I was texting Ryan, voice text of course while I was driving and telling him when the contraction came. They started getting closer together but we're still not as strong as I remember having them with Jude. When I got to the ER I had to wait for the nurse to come and get me. When she did everyone was moving slowly because I truly did not know if I was in labor. Everyone thought I was crazy for not knowing. Especially after they checked me and found out that my water did break and I was already dilated at a seven. After she checked me that is when the contractions started to get harder. I texted Ryan right away and told him to get there quick. I had that time I did not know that his car would not start at work so he had to get a ride to the hospital from a friend. I hope was wondering what was taking him so long in that explained it. When he got there I was about to get into my new room where I would deliver Titus. It was a good thing we had decided on Titus's name on Tuesday. We had not told anyone but were excited that we had a name. We have not decided what the mill name was but had a couple favorites. Once I got the epidural my contractions to not hurt anymore which is awesome. I delivered shortly after 1213. Family was not able to make it there before Titus was born but they were there at the perfect time after he was born able to come back and see him. I was so thankful for Kristen and Andy for being able to watch Jude and for the fiddlers who came and played with him while Ryan and I were in the delivery room. Judy loves all of those people so much and so do we. Clark went to go get a few things that my parents had asked him to get. It's funny because I got Ryan to text Devon and she asked when she thought that I would  have him and his response was one minute. That was at 12 or two when I had him at 12:13. So awesome! He weighed 7 pounds and 1 ounce and was 20 inches long. He looks so much like Jude. After a few minutes we were able to get you to come up and meet Titus. His little unsure but the face of smile and excitement was awesome to see. He is going to make a great big brother. We decided to name him Titus Ryan and I am so happy that we did. We stayed the night in the hospital and I felt so sorry for the parents next to us is there a newborn baby was crying almost the whole night. Titus woke up often but as long as he was being held and cuddled he slept pretty good. Ryan was out snoring on the couch he did not even know that the nurses came and checked on me a couple of times. I delivered Titus at Scott and White Hospital which is different than where I delivered Jude. We had him at college station medical center. Both hospitals are great and all of the nurses were so sweet and kind and helpful. I have been meaning to write this post for a long time. Obviously because Titus is almost a month old already! He is doing awesome it is so sweet. :-)